Growing up my Mom used to tell me that I took the fun out of parenting because I would always punish myself before she could. Instead of grounding me she always had to calm me down because I would be so hard on myself. Which brings me to the past month...a few months ago I thought I wanted to do all of my pre-requisites to get into Physical Therapy School, but I have realized that right now that may not be the best choice, so the full time job search reconvened. That has been my struggle recently, either I am too late or too early and have to wait. It gets frustrating, so this is why I am writing this blog; I want to explain a few things and I know that other people have to be in similar situations.
So here it goes...
I have been quite frustrated with myself since the marathon, everyday I had perceived this marathon as a failure because I missed my 3:50 goal then missed my sub 4:00 goal by hitting 4 hours and 1 minute for the marathon (despite an 18 minute PR). When I say failure, I have thought about it everyday since the marathon and let it get me down about everything else in my life. I had discussed this with several close friends and everyone said the same thing...Sarah stop being hard on yourself, you did great and there is always next time and you'll get a job at some point. I couldn't let it go, I was convinced that something was wrong with me...I couldn't get a job and I couldn't hit my goals. The whole thing had literally nothing to do with the marathon, it was all about trying to land a full-time career. My marathon went AMAZING, I beat my first marathon time by 18 minutes and that is awesome! I made it to the start line and finish line injury free and with a supportive and encouraging training group. After a few days of thinking about it I have realized that I need to stop being frustrated and just keep moving on. It is always hard when you see other people having what you want but it is important to remember that each person has a different track. Everything will happen when it is suppose to and until then there is nothing I can do about it, all I can do now is keep applying.
Nothing in my life has gone like I planned why would it start now, all I can do is be patient and work towards my goals. I am a hard worker and I know that if I keep moving forward I will eventually succeed; I just have to be....p-a-t-i-e-n-t.
So here it goes...
I have been quite frustrated with myself since the marathon, everyday I had perceived this marathon as a failure because I missed my 3:50 goal then missed my sub 4:00 goal by hitting 4 hours and 1 minute for the marathon (despite an 18 minute PR). When I say failure, I have thought about it everyday since the marathon and let it get me down about everything else in my life. I had discussed this with several close friends and everyone said the same thing...Sarah stop being hard on yourself, you did great and there is always next time and you'll get a job at some point. I couldn't let it go, I was convinced that something was wrong with me...I couldn't get a job and I couldn't hit my goals. The whole thing had literally nothing to do with the marathon, it was all about trying to land a full-time career. My marathon went AMAZING, I beat my first marathon time by 18 minutes and that is awesome! I made it to the start line and finish line injury free and with a supportive and encouraging training group. After a few days of thinking about it I have realized that I need to stop being frustrated and just keep moving on. It is always hard when you see other people having what you want but it is important to remember that each person has a different track. Everything will happen when it is suppose to and until then there is nothing I can do about it, all I can do now is keep applying.
Nothing in my life has gone like I planned why would it start now, all I can do is be patient and work towards my goals. I am a hard worker and I know that if I keep moving forward I will eventually succeed; I just have to be....p-a-t-i-e-n-t.